So before I jump into my meet and greet with my IP, a little history about my anxious ways.
I have the tendency to get a bit anxious when I feel like something is out of my control or when I am thrown into a situation that I did not expect.
Meeting my IP was just that, a very anxious unexpected experience which was out of my control.
I was on my way to my doctors appointment for an ultrasound and blood work to follow up on my body's reaction to the estrogen. My phone rings and its the doctors office, instantly thinking I must have wrote down the wrong time and missed the appointment, I answer the phone. My cycle coordinator Ashley is on the line and states she has very exciting news, "Your IP arrived a week early from Germany and would love to have dinner with you tonight. He figured you would be in the area and it would be a great time to sit down and chat." I sat in my car with my mouth wide open not even knowing how to respond to her statement. I usually like to prepare myself and be ready to give a good first impression. I was wearing jeans, a t-shirt and flip flops...not my idea of appropriate attire. I had anticipated only going to the doctors office and then running some errands. While, all of these lovely thoughts flooded my brain I realized Ashley was still on the phone waiting for me to respond. So I politely agreed to meet him for dinner and hung up.
The instant I hung up I googled the nearest Target. I knew a top and shoes were going to be necessary and since I was about an hour early to my appointment I figured I would stop by before making my way over to the office. To my dismay finding the appropriate clothes was fairly easy and crossing that off my list of to do things made me feel a bit more at ease.
As, I make my way over to the doctors office for my ultrasound my mind is still racing. I had anticipated this moment happening for quite some time however, I did not have any of my notes or questions handy and felt completely unprepared.
I arrived at the doctors office and everything went great. My uterus looked good and I was exactly where they needed me to be in regards to hormone levels.
I went up to the front desk to schedule my next appointment when Ashley called my name and asked me to go to her office. I went in thinking it would be a regular follow up conversation. She quickly handed me a paper with all of the hotel information and location where my IP would be staying for the week. She asked me to call him and schedule the time that we could meet as they didn't want to impose on my schedule.
I left the appointment feeling sick to my stomach...not only did I get thrown into this meeting now I have to call and schedule it myself?
So I did just that...I called and the phone rang and rang...I sat hoping no one would pick up and I could just leave a message. I wasn't that lucky. My IP answered and asked if I could meet him at his hotel and we could decide on a dinner place from there.
We went to a fancy ocean front restaurant (thank goodness I had changed out of my flip flops). I remember our entire conversation from beginning to end but I'll spare you all the details.
He was an amazing man who wants a child more than anything in this world. He has achieved so much in his life time and I felt so proud and humbled to be the person he chose to help him achieve his final dream. He explained to me why he wants this baby and why he is willing to do anything to get him. It was such a bonding moment and I knew in that moment, in that restaurant that I had made one of the best decisions in my life. A very life changing decision but an amazing one.
Our goodbye was not an easy one as we knew we would not be seeing each other very often because of his work and living in a completely different country.
I remember him hugging me tight and looking me in the eyes begging me to take care of his baby. He thanked me for helping him fufill his dream. As I drove off I could see him standing in front of the hotel through my rearview mirror and time stood still as I let all the emotions sink in.
I have the tendency to get a bit anxious when I feel like something is out of my control or when I am thrown into a situation that I did not expect.
Meeting my IP was just that, a very anxious unexpected experience which was out of my control.
I was on my way to my doctors appointment for an ultrasound and blood work to follow up on my body's reaction to the estrogen. My phone rings and its the doctors office, instantly thinking I must have wrote down the wrong time and missed the appointment, I answer the phone. My cycle coordinator Ashley is on the line and states she has very exciting news, "Your IP arrived a week early from Germany and would love to have dinner with you tonight. He figured you would be in the area and it would be a great time to sit down and chat." I sat in my car with my mouth wide open not even knowing how to respond to her statement. I usually like to prepare myself and be ready to give a good first impression. I was wearing jeans, a t-shirt and flip flops...not my idea of appropriate attire. I had anticipated only going to the doctors office and then running some errands. While, all of these lovely thoughts flooded my brain I realized Ashley was still on the phone waiting for me to respond. So I politely agreed to meet him for dinner and hung up.
The instant I hung up I googled the nearest Target. I knew a top and shoes were going to be necessary and since I was about an hour early to my appointment I figured I would stop by before making my way over to the office. To my dismay finding the appropriate clothes was fairly easy and crossing that off my list of to do things made me feel a bit more at ease.
As, I make my way over to the doctors office for my ultrasound my mind is still racing. I had anticipated this moment happening for quite some time however, I did not have any of my notes or questions handy and felt completely unprepared.
I arrived at the doctors office and everything went great. My uterus looked good and I was exactly where they needed me to be in regards to hormone levels.
I went up to the front desk to schedule my next appointment when Ashley called my name and asked me to go to her office. I went in thinking it would be a regular follow up conversation. She quickly handed me a paper with all of the hotel information and location where my IP would be staying for the week. She asked me to call him and schedule the time that we could meet as they didn't want to impose on my schedule.
I left the appointment feeling sick to my stomach...not only did I get thrown into this meeting now I have to call and schedule it myself?
So I did just that...I called and the phone rang and rang...I sat hoping no one would pick up and I could just leave a message. I wasn't that lucky. My IP answered and asked if I could meet him at his hotel and we could decide on a dinner place from there.
We went to a fancy ocean front restaurant (thank goodness I had changed out of my flip flops). I remember our entire conversation from beginning to end but I'll spare you all the details.
He was an amazing man who wants a child more than anything in this world. He has achieved so much in his life time and I felt so proud and humbled to be the person he chose to help him achieve his final dream. He explained to me why he wants this baby and why he is willing to do anything to get him. It was such a bonding moment and I knew in that moment, in that restaurant that I had made one of the best decisions in my life. A very life changing decision but an amazing one.
Our goodbye was not an easy one as we knew we would not be seeing each other very often because of his work and living in a completely different country.
I remember him hugging me tight and looking me in the eyes begging me to take care of his baby. He thanked me for helping him fufill his dream. As I drove off I could see him standing in front of the hotel through my rearview mirror and time stood still as I let all the emotions sink in.
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| The beautiful view from our restaurant...best sunset experience ever!! |
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